Hi. 🙂

The sound of what seemed to be someone trying to open my front door, which I keep locked from the inside, followed by someone knocking on my door with like a coin or something, followed by someone either trying to forge the lock or succeeding to forge the lock of the first door that is locked woke me up. I’m laying here not moving a muscle (which I usually do with unexpected visitors). The problem is, however, I’m fxcking triggered, I’m naked, it’s cold and I reallyyy have to pee.

It happened around 4 AM and currently it’s 04:43, but given that the city is asleep right now and it’s pitch dark here I wanted to wait it out. But that’s starting to become more uncomfortable. I, however, am uncertain if the threat has left, is still at my front door or is inside my living room. If the person is armed, I have a problem. (I’m so fxcking triggered.)

I’d rather wait until sunrise – and I hope my visje is safe 🙁 – but ik moet echt kxnker nodig. 🙁 So I’m going to open my locked bedroom door and do it. But I’m really triggered so my movements could be loud as hell. Like you don’t know for how long I’ve been wanting to kill someone. Anyone. You already generally came to the wrong address and the underlying reason why you do this makes this so much worse.

04:59 (AM) CET

Unfortunately no random unarmed person in my living room. 🙁

05:13 (AM) CET

Things like last night are quite the reason why it is unfortunate that I live alone without a useful network. (Especially because I don’t trust the average police officer.) But still here is one of the safest places for me to be. Or bascally the safest place out of all options I have.

My ad is doing, eh, fine I guess. I have a view rate of 11.56% (the common is rate is 15%, so it’s not that far off), with 926 impressions and 107 views. The video itself has 557 views. No one is clicking on the button haha, but honestly my goal is just for people to be aware of this. (With absolutely zero intentions of routing traffic to my websites.) Especially considering that ads are usually done with certain voice inflections and other things to grasp attention, and I’m speaking very calmly and use slightly formal language, my expectations are low. I’ve spent €3,37 this far.

11:13 (AM) CET

My interaction rate is, with 270 interactions, 29,16% by the way, which is quite high given that 6% is already above average.

Oh and chances are that I can’t see the clickthrough rate because I, of course, can not install tracking codes on a government website. & Apparently the 926 is from just yesterday. What a pleasant surprise. 🙂

I’m tackling my kitchen haha.

11:47 (AM) CET

I did laundry and bought groceries.

I wonder how it will turn out. It’s my first time trying it. I based my recipe on comparing recipes found via google search and youtube, then taking “the average” with my favorite ingredients, and adding some nutmeg just because I felt like doing that. The cassava I ended up cutting into very tiny pieces instead of grating it because that went far better.

Also, I guess to disassociate myself from the Dutch government, I added a link to the article about the initiative on the D.O.C.I.S. International website. I don’t expect most people to listen before they draw conclusions, especially the “I just want to be watching Netflix,” repulsive crowd.

This is unintentionally a great big “fuck you” to all dumb fxcking kxnker racists who say that “going through governmental bureaucracy is racist because minorities are too dumb to do these things”. They are so psychotic that they think that the best way to heal someone is by adding a “healthy” organ from a living or dead person with a completely different DNA.

Usually I say that race does not say anything about someone’s personality. But when it comes to thinking that it’s rational to exchange organs I do think that that is really something for Caucasians.

This liefje is backkk <333

17:07 (05:07 PM) CET

I was also glad to hear from my Wildcatje. And omg the most attractive Asian man I have ever seen responded to a comment of mine. <3_<3 & I watch my baby before dinner now. But something in my Wildcatje’s video inspired me to take down a notch how seriously I take care of my visje. Even if I tone it down, it will still be far better maintenance than my guppy aquarium. So I’ll quit using an alarm to wake up again.

Furthermore, I think I’m going to stop blogging for an unspecified amount of time. Haha I am so fxcking done with the internet. I wish all zombies were dead already. (My god these people are like “Stick it in me yahhh,” and “Of course and just throw me off a bridge afterwards,” in regard to vaccine and organ donation. Just fxcking die already.)

I’ll see you whenever. Good night x

22:12 (10:12 PM) CET