I don’t know how, but I just won’t. I mean at some point maybe finally some people will ask me why I put so much effort into avoiding my family etc. instead of watching how I’m forced back towards them once again?

I think I’m an expert in making the best out of the worst situation?

00:03 (12:03 AM) CEST

Can’t wait to start shooting. 🙂 Looking forward to the world in which news is actually news. Some day.

Good night for now x

01:08 (AM) CEST

What I said earlier was quite misformulated actually. I don’t expect anyone to ask, first of all. I just hope some people will understand. Also, this time I might finally be successful in never having to see them again. There’s slight suspense but at least I’ll guaranteedly have my home until at least the end of September.

Also by shooting I literally mean shooting with guns. Also shooting with camera. Simultaneously. It will be the most fun and satisfying thing I’ve ever done. Words can’t describe how much I need that satisfaction. These people who just diss everything…

Literally just thinking about pushing against a gun that backfires, then seeing the life leave someone’s body, knowing that they’ll never negatively impact anyone again and never annoy me again. Most people think I’m too soft for that, but I could literally do that all day.

I randomly woke up. Maybe someone is thinking about me? 🙂

05:27 (AM) CEST

People who think that the previous previous thought is crazy are overly emotional. Death is actually a permanent solution to a problem of many. It’s efficient and satisfying if you care enough.

I’d have loved to just have fun with everyone, but most people just don’t know how to love and with that I think the world is better off without them. If 2017 wouldn’t have happened, I would have had a different attitude towards it. But it has shown me how people really are.

In the present society, I can’t publicly have supporters, because most things I stand for are illegal. But I know you’re out there liefjeee. Hoping we will be together soon. 🙂

06:00 (AM) CEST

This mass “Let’s avoid her but still observe her (and plagiarize things)” shows that deep down a lot of people already know that they are not right for me.

I wish I could write about the yays of being loved, but I have no clue what that’s like. We’re living in a world in which people fear love. There’s something very wrong with the thought pattern: “She is in much pain, you better go against your gut and ignore her.” That’s not love.

Avoiding people because otherwise you’d inflict permanent emotional pain on them because you don’t want to lie about what purposeless creatures they are, is a form of love. The best I can do.

06:17 (AM) CEST

When I was younger, I used to get along with everyone, because my views were not developed yet. I guess because of an odd default attraction (likely linked to survival potential and natural physical features), people put more emotional weight on being liked by me, in contrast to how much they care about others. They would like it more if I were just an empty vessel solely made for companionship. Unfortunately for them, I have my views.

06:27 (AM) CEST

If everyone has the assumption that other people will show me love and therefore for some reason they don’t have to, then in the end no one shows me love. Actions count, feelings don’t.

Haha I feel Above All Else.

Napping x

06:39 (AM) CEST

Literally the main reason why I seem shy is because if I’d express my actual thoughts physically, I’d be getting myself in trouble for no reason. So I just hint at it.

I won’t be chilling here forever because at some point people will act upon my thoughts. (Instead of acting upon my booby traps man one time was fun but these people just keep doing it.) Things will unfold in my favor. There will be no one above me, hierarchically. I believe in it.

Regardless if people call me a schizophrenic for it, my mind cannot be changed about this. I mean, look at these wimps…

By the way, in regard to what I said yesterday about nobodies thinking that they are somebody: I greatly distinguish between people who shape the market and people who enter a market. From gaming to beauty products, there are people whose example has shaped a market, and people who are invested into a market. I respect those who shape. Outliers within the market I also greatly appreciate. The rest is dead weight resources-wise.

09:20 (AM) CEST

09:25 (AM) CEST

In regard to the Portland whatever saying “support us or stay the hell out of the way”, I’d choose to stay out of the way and observe how the entire city turns into ashes, because that’s not how someone should ask for help. Especially not after being helpless and having screwed up big time.

10:40 (AM) CEST

Like seriously, these people need to learn accountability. Also, the media do whatever they want regardless, so so should you.

13:34 (01:34 PM) CEST

Especially if somehow those demons have inspiration for 4 more years of fabricated lies. There is not even a decent successor for them. (I’m not a politician. :p)

13:37 (01:37 PM) CEST

I’m surprised that Genesis 1:21 says that God has created whales. That it doesn’t say that God has created dinosaurs. Because whales are not the eldest creatures in history, are they? (According to “science”.)

I’ve never read the Bible from start to finish, and since I’m keeping myself occupied, I might as well just (start) do(ing) that. Finally, something relatable to read. :p

Also, by the way, on the “white Jesus versus black Jesus” debate: it is in the ten commandments that creating depictions of the content of the Bible is forbidden, so the people on both sides of the debate will go to hell regardless ahahahaha.

14:01 (02:01 PM) CEST

Genesis 1:22 the multiplication command here is directed towards animals? (For food¿)

14:09 (02:09 PM) CEST

I’m laughing. I’m reading with such a bias. I guess I should take back my previous words. (1:28)

I, by the way, consider this basically a legendary novel that is very relatable.

14:17 (02:17 PM) CEST

I’m quite confused here about why, if the serpent and Eve were created in the image of God, Eve still chose to randomly risk dying, thus becoming mortal.

14:45 (02:45 PM) CEST

Genesis 6:5 : I can relateee, as you can read. Also, this is such an odd thought of mine, Genesis 6:4 : I wonder if Titans are born in soil?

I think I’m about to read my favorite part of the story. 🙂

15:05 (03:05 PM) CEST

Genesis 8:21 : I’d also do population downsizing only once.

Genesis 8:22 : This is yayed.

Nap time x

15:30 (03:30 PM) CEST

I had intentions of buying groceries today, but I strongly prefer staying in bed. I’m tired of stares and unwanted energies. Sometimes they’re not unwanted, but most of the time they are.

Postponing that won’t solve that, if in the meantime I don’t get servants, but at least cozied up here I feel happy.

I guess I’ll continue reading.

17:09 (05:09 PM) CEST

Even before I touched the book, I fell asleep again. My dreams were like being able to see through people’s eyes in real-time. Hoping you’ll be doing better soon…

19:42 (07:42 PM) CEST

Genesis 9:2 : leadership is different after a Volta. As in people would think more than twice before disobeying us again (they likely won’t disobey at all). (8:21)

9:4 : Why is blue (as in rare) red meat so extremely tasty? Is the time equivalent to this one?

9:21-23: Will there ever be a moment where nakedness is normal again? This, of course is a different situation though because (maybe after stress relief after all his work was done) he seemed to have lost himself for a moment. Then, of course, to minimize the visibility of that moment of having lost oneself, covering someone up is the absolute right thing to do.

Also is having a family life with a traditionally subordinate wife still part of the curse of Adam and Eve?

12:1-2 : Why did he have to leave? Were people peopling again…?

20:12 (08:12 PM) CEST

13:12 : It’s cursed? (9:25)

20:21 (08:21 PM) CEST

14:2 : Is this before or after destruction? (10:13)

20:25 (08:25 PM) CEST

15:13-14 : Is right now the majority of the world population not a foreigner in his/her “own contry” in some way?

20:40 (08:40 PM) CEST

18:13-15 : Why do people keep lying to God? Other thoughts here I will keep to myself because I don’t know what I’m meddling in.

20:57 (08:57 PM) CEST

18:17,19-20: But God has placed a booby trap? 😮 Information has been left out. It is an unmotivated command. (As in propaganda at its finest. Like me saying: “Kiss your hand right now.”)

Did you do it?

Reading KJV, by the way. (But you might already know that.)

21:07 (09:07 PM) CEST

19 is absolute moral chaos.

21:18 (09:18 PM) CEST

20:18 : Is this because of incest…?

21:41 (09:41 PM) CEST